Saturday, August 15, 2009


“Nobody who gets old and looks back on their life says ‘gosh, I wish I would have worked more and spent less time with my kids.’” The wise words of a woman who now has 2 adult children and often wishes she had spent more time with them as they grew up. They are also the words that pushed me over the metaphorical edge. On Thursday I gave my two week notice and for all intents and purposes retired from the workforce and my pretty lucrative job in pharmaceutical sales. As women it is our responsibility to do what feels right to us since we are usually the pillars of the family. I am now going to do what I love the most and that is raise my two girls and take care of my family.

People have said to me “you are lucky you can do that,” and these words puzzle me. What do you mean “I can do that?” The truth is that it is not really a “can” it is more of a “will.” You see, I have not won the lottery nor have I inherited a large sum of money from anywhere that will guarantee me anything. But what guarantees are we given in life anyway? The only thing you are guaranteed is the moment you are in and the fact that one day your physical body will parish. I recently heard the story of a 30 year old woman from Ohio who was taken to the hospital on a Saturday for having a seizure out of the blue and she died on Monday. She left behind her a young son (pray for him). Do you think that if she would have known that she was going to die at 30 she would have worried about work, retirement, money or tenure? I guess it is possible that she loved her job but the more likely answer is that she would have spent every moment with those she loved and doing what she loved. I do not mean to be morbid or to suggest that our decisions in life should be influenced at all by a fear of death. More what I am saying is that we should spend our time here on earth feeling good, being happy, making others happy and doing what we love. I have just been pulled so hard in the direction of my children that gradually the importance of money fell away from my (and my husband’s) mind. To me there is so much joy, love and peace spontaneously generated when I can care for my girls myself that it has somehow replaced the need for me to think about money. I think I now understand exactly what people mean when they say “faith.” I have stepped out on faith so to speak and I know that because I am doing what feels right to me that it will hold me up.

Have you ever stepped out on faith?

1 comment:

  1. Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. I must have memorized this verse of Scripture as a child. Shazana's sentiment is refreshing. Perhaps those that commented how lucky she is admire her for her dedication to her family and wish for themselves they could find such peace. Taking that leap of faith that their needs will be supplied and their hearts desires will be granted can be intimidating.